I wish to the rain my life won't be wasted

(yes i do have a tumblr on which i during the beginning of its existence did use it as a personal blog and wrote all kinds of embarrassing stuff onto it)

But I found a picture of me from 2012 on it



Have you even seen a picture of me? I am going on seventeen there, eating at a fancy café. It looks like I have a scar on my cheek but I assure it's just the light.

I thought I was old and cool. Not knowing how much there was to break inside of me, or how much I could grow as a human and get strong. Because 2012 was a mtherfckng rollercoaster trip I shit you not.

I always said 2012 was the best year of my life, yes, I was in love, I was on an adventure, but my heart also got broken and in the end it was only year seventeen year old me could call the best. 2013 was even worse, I'd say it was the worst year. Yes, I met new friends but some parts of me were cracked during that year. 2014 was okay, it was nice and all. But now, I am happy. 2015.

This is going to be my year. I swear to the rain.

I am going to feel like the world is a head of me now.

Scorpions and spiders

Today I went to Messukeskus with my boyfriend. Messukeskus means Fair Centre, and thus we went to a fair (there were actually six fairs but who tf cares).

We saw frogs and spiders. Trarantulas and stuff. They were so cool, and I started to wonder what I'd get most frightend from, seeing a spider, a snake, a scorpion or a frog.

The list looks like this:

1. SpiderIf they´re hairy and nasty, I'd get so scared of them. I would most likely loose my ability to scream, I'd just back away and squake like something very high pitched. This would only apply to hairy and scary looking spiders though.
2. Scorpion
   Most likely because there aren't many of them. Are they even aggressive? I can't see a scorpion being something that chases a human (neither would a spider, but they're freakish looking, okay?) But I know they're dangerous, so I'm happy I live in a place they would freeze to death in.
3. Snake
   I'm not scared of snakes. If you don't step on them they won't attack. They're cute, I could even have them as a pet.
4. Frogs
   Because you won't die from a frog unless you lick it! They're just beautiful small christmas trees of the jungle :D