Gaming!

I am so happy that I actually get to finish Alice Madness Returns, you don't know guyz! The final world to beat.... :)
Hopefully I can beat LoZ Skyward Sword within two months, but it's at my boyfriends mother's house so I can't get to there too often...
And I started on Heroes of Might and Magic, but that's only a time consuming game, so idk if I ever start to play for real though
BUT there are two more Zelda games to beat at my boyfriends' so no problems >:)

Name 30 songs

1:A song you like with a color in the title: 
Blue - The Birthday Massacre

2:A song you like with a number in the title:
21 Guns - Green Day (Broadway version)

3:A song that reminds you of summertime:
Enemmän duoo ku sooloo - Kuningasidea


4:A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about:
One of us - Lion King II

5:A song that needs to be played LOUD
:Save yourself - My Darkest Days


6:A song that makes you want to dance:
Poison - Groove Coverage 

7:A song to drive to:
Hunting high and low - Stratovarius 

8:A song about drugs or alcohol:
Requiem for a Dream 

9:A song that makes you happy:
So Happy I could die - Reckless Love

10:A song that makes you sad:
Fix You - Coldplay

11:A song that you never get tired of:
Dead to the World - Nightwish

12:A song from your preteen years:
Would you love a monsterman - Lordi


13:One of your favorite 80’s songs:
Winds of Change - Scorpions (which is actually from 1990 but whatevs)

14:A song that you would love played at your wedding:
Concerning Hobbits - Lord of the Rings soundtracks

15:The last song you heard:
Hijo de la Luna - Pellek (cover)

16:One of your favorite classical songs:
Finlandia - Jean Sibelius


17:A movie soundtrack you like:
Swimming - Hans Zimmer 

18:A song from the year that you were born:
This aint a love song - Bon Jovi

19:A song that makes you think about life:
Shudder before the beautiful - Nightwish

20:A song that has many meanings to you:
Orchard of Mines - Globus 

21:A favorite song with a person’s name in the title;
Alice extended version - Avril Lavigne

22:A song that reminds you of the night: 
Tallulah - Sonata Arctica 

23:A song that you think everybody should listen to:
 All of me - Within Temptation

24:A song you have seen live 
 Amaranthine - Amaranthe

25:A song by an artist no longer living:
Edge of Glory (cover) - Tristan Björling 

26:A song that makes you want to fall in love:
Kuussa Tuulee - Haloo Helsinki



27:A song that reminds you of a place:
Let the Record show - Emilie Autumn

28:A song by an artist with a voice that you love:
Julen är här, Raskasta Joulua 2013 - Elize Ryd and Tony Kaakko



29:A song that you remember from your childhood:
Taivas lyö tulta - Teräsbetoni 



30:A song that is on your current playlist:
All to blame - Sum 41

I am proud to announce that I can be beautiful

Hey! 

A few weeks ago I went with my long lost friend Emma to a photoshoot and this is one of the pictures I thought was rather beautiful.

:) love to you all, beautiful ones!

Original is not always the best hehe

I can't get over the fact that Poison - Alice Cooper is such a great song! Like really, in every form (acoustic, cover, nightcore, hardstyle etc) it's so awesome.
Ironically the original is the worst version of the song of them all :D



psst I'm all happy again. Feels good again. The dark clouds are still there but I'm okay :)

is there a limit on how much one can hate oneself?
i want to vomit

ashamed

I always get so ashamed when I say something that is percieved as something cruel. That my parents think I actually am a heartless monster because I say stupid stuff and that I actually think a certain way about people.

I.do.not.always.mean.what.I.say

I use dark humour. It makes myself feel clever, but people who don't understand my dark sense of humour always get sad and angry and I hate that I can't communicate with people without making me seem like a total asshole.

I am not an asshole.
Maybe a tiny asshole, but I always mean good,

I know that there are children who think I am scary because I'm a difficult person to grasp. Sometimes I get flattered when I hear: You are scary. It's fun to know I am not a gray person no one will remember, everyone will remember that girl.

But I want my legacy to be something worth smiling for.

One day, I will save my own life, have such a control over it I can be proud and not so damn ashamed of what I say about people and to other people.

Me out.

I wish to the rain my life won't be wasted

(yes i do have a tumblr on which i during the beginning of its existence did use it as a personal blog and wrote all kinds of embarrassing stuff onto it)

But I found a picture of me from 2012 on it



Have you even seen a picture of me? I am going on seventeen there, eating at a fancy café. It looks like I have a scar on my cheek but I assure it's just the light.

I thought I was old and cool. Not knowing how much there was to break inside of me, or how much I could grow as a human and get strong. Because 2012 was a mtherfckng rollercoaster trip I shit you not.

I always said 2012 was the best year of my life, yes, I was in love, I was on an adventure, but my heart also got broken and in the end it was only year seventeen year old me could call the best. 2013 was even worse, I'd say it was the worst year. Yes, I met new friends but some parts of me were cracked during that year. 2014 was okay, it was nice and all. But now, I am happy. 2015.

This is going to be my year. I swear to the rain.

I am going to feel like the world is a head of me now.