Not dying

Hey.

Lot of things are better now.

I visited the place I will be "working" at now during spring and it seems more promising than I feared, way better and... safer.

They arranged things so I won't be stressed to death, and man, they were so NICE. And silly me was afraid I would slowly suffocate, but maybe I won't. The springs seems so much more friendly towards me now.

I have had time to relax, sleep, enjoy my horse and lots more. I have friends who love me and friends I can talk to.

So, yeah. Life is not that bad. I am bad sometimes, and to be blunt, I think I need to be bad to remain myself. As strange as it sounds.