No Story Lives Forever

No Story Lives Forever
Broken

söndag 19 mars 2017

Are you the right one? No? Okay.

Not too long ago I posted a pic on instagram where I wrote lots about selflove and selfpositivity.

Not to be lying, but that covers nothing but half the truth. It comes in days, weeks, where I feel unstoppable, I feel like the best person in the whole world.

Notice that this has nothing to do with _body positivity_. I have _always_ liked my body. My face, my lips, my eye brows, my wrists, my hands, my legs, my stomach, my breasts, my chest you name it. Never have I wished for them to change.

But my god how I have had insecurities when it comes to my personality. I have loathed my personality, especially in gymnasiet. When I was younger I did everything to stand out and god I stood out, but then in gymnasiet everything fell apart. I tried becoming something I wasn't, hiding my personality behind iron bars, letting my supressed me out on special occasions when I knew nobody would judge me.

Your personality isn't something desirable. Your personality is wrong. Your body is beautiful, but your personality is at fault.

Goddamnit how I hated it! How I hated forcing myself into some kind of "one size fits all"-personality. Fuck that.

The older I get the more I realize how my personality is accepted. That people tell me I'm such an honest person, how they'll never forget me

That feels good.

söndag 5 mars 2017

Bucketlist for 2017

Well whatever, I'm allowed to do what I want, and that results in a bucket list for 2k17.

1. Get my kandi done. Become bachelor of arts 2017, yay! And I probably will!

2. Find a lot of new music to listen to.

3. Write a whole 2 hours script by myself.

4. Meet that one old friend.

5. Be madly in love.

6. Attend my close friend's wedding!

7. Write story #2! And maybe edit it. 54 000 words so far, only 50 000-ish left :D

8. Attend Ylonz 2k17.

9. Party like a tiger with one particular friend.

10. Be with my pony as much as possible :)

11. Pick up drawing and painting again.

12. Avoid anxiety/ stress/ depression.