No no no no

Someone I follow on tumblr just posted something that can be interpret as a suicide note. She said she has an expire date.

Now this person hasn't uploaded anything onto her tumblr for a loong while and I almost forgot I ever followed her in the first place.

I got a bit nervous, was she dead already? Went onto her instagram and she seems okay. No one hade commented anything on her latest picture that might hint to someone knowing what she wrote on tumblr.

Today I had anxiety and cried. And I came to think of that note, and felt something inside of me. Suicide. The art of killing oneself.

No.

No.

NO! I don't want to feel that way. no no no no.

My own horcruxes

I do have my own horcruxes.

I am talking about putting some part of my soul into something else, which in my case is characters. I create character where I literally put part of my soul into them. Because I have created these characters during a spawn of a few years they're my own. MY OWN.

I noticed the other day that most of my characters follow the same pattern. Now, don't laugh at me, I know how ridiculous this sounds but hear me out.

They follow kind of the same pattern. By this I mean the way their arch goes.

1) First they start somewhere. It can be from rock bottom, or from a stable ground.
2) Then something happens and they gain levels. I.e they get louder, the main story progresses as the character does something probably unwanted, or potentially dangerous stuff. They might also get agressive and/or dangerous.
3) At the peak point of the main story, the character breaks down/looses their power that they've gained during the story.
4) As the story ends, the character has lost the "war".

And I'm a sucker for these kind of characters. There is no shame in that.